Hysterosalpingography…Say That 5x Fast!

I hope everyone had a truly wonderful and relaxing Thanksgiving Day! I sure did. We ate a lot and laughed just as much. Christmas is around the corner and we plan to visit my family. I am looking forward to that. That time with them is very much needed right now.

Anyway.

At my last appointment with the new doctor, he decided to put me on a 10 day worth of Provera. Provera is the drug that forces my period on. I spotted very minimally on Friday (the 29th) and it went away until Tuesday (12/2). Well, I had called the office to see if I should be worried about the fact I only spotted (this was before my period came back full force on the 2nd). The reason I worried was due to the fact that this round of Provera was supposed to bring on my period so we could do the HSG test. I think I briefly discussed this a few posts ago, but quickly…

An HSG test is short for Hysterosalpingography. This test, according to Google, “is an X-ray test to outline the internal shape of the uterus and show whether the fallopian tubes are blocked. In HSG, a thin tube is threaded through the vagina and cervix. A substance known as contrast material is injected into the uterus.”

This test is best done on day 2 of your menstrual cycle (woohoo…) and at hospital. Making this test happen involves three schedules, mine, the Dr. and the hospitals so it can be quite difficult. So that is why I was a bit concerned. Well, by the time the nurse got back to me (which was today y the way), I had gotten a full period and our Dr. was out of the office at a different location. They set up the HSG test for next Friday and a follow up on that following Monday. Waiting on confirmation of all of this from my Dr. of course. But at least now it is on the books somewhere.

He also put me on 5 days of Letrozole. I looked this up and it is actually used for a few different reasons. The main one is used for helping breast cancer as part of chemotherapy…

The second is for fertility. (But, still kinda scary.) It gets taken day 3 of my period for 5 days. It is supposed to help bring on ovulation. He said that it has a better success rating with woman struggling with PCOS or other ovulating issues. Keep your fingers crossed!

Also, send prayers to us about this HSG test. I need it to be clear and healthy and positively good news so we can move forward that I am praying we can.

Oh, The Possibilities

We had our visit with the new doctor this past Thursday. It went well. It was a very quick, but productive and positive doctor’s visit, I have to say! We left with a lot of hope.

We basically just asked him what our next steps would be, how we’d get there, and we listened to every detail he had for us, which was A LOT.

Our plan for now is for me to get a HSG test done on day two of my next menstrual cycle (oh, the joy… *nerves start ramping up thinking about it again*) If you do not know what a HSG test is, don’t feel bad, because I didn’t either. Per Google, a HSG test or Hysterosalpingography is “an X-ray test to outline the internal shape of the uterus and show whether the Fallopian tubes are blocked. In HSG, a thin tube is threaded through the vagina and cervix. A substance known as contrast material is injected into the uterus.”.

Basically, they will shoot dye into my tubes to do an x-ray and see if I have any issues with my Fallopian tubes. Our doctor did mention that a lot of times woman with unexplained infertility get this test done as part of their research and end up getting pregnant after it. He doesn’t know for certain, but suspects it may have something to do with the flushing out of the tubes the dye provides. He hopes this will be a happy coincidence when I do it, but the hopes aren’t up.

This test has to be done on day two of my period because if there is a slight chance I am pregnant, they do not want to disrupt the pregnancy by doing this test. It literally makes me sweat thinking I have to do this test while on my girly time, but I understand why we have to. It just makes me break into a sweat every time. My next menstrual cycle starts in exactly 9 days (maybe). That is if my PCOS decides to work with me this month. I might go three months with the same consistent pattern of my period and then go without for a few months, then repeat. So it is all dependent on my next period.

After the HSG test is complete, depending on his findings, I will be put on a medication like Clomid (the name has left me at the moment of the drug he wants me to use), but it will boost up my ovulation. I will have to go into the office pretty frequently for them to tell me if I am ovulating or not until we get a positive showing of ovulation.

Then after that, we will go to the next step. IUI, IVF. And if those don’t work, we get sent to a different specialist. Let’s hope and pray that we do well with plan 1. Our doctor was hopeful and positive that we will be just fine in his hands. That we will have a positive situation. But, let’s keep saying those prayers because I have THE  worst luck and I do not want to jinx anything.

I do have to say though, I am choosing to be positive in this situation. Leaving that office on Thursday, I did not feel so weighted down. I am choosing to roll with that.

 

Sometimes Life Happens

And that is why it has been months since I have written here. I am sorry that I suck..

But, I figured I would update on our journey. As of right now, it has been the same old stuff just on a different day, however tomorrow we will meet with a fertility specialist to see what our next step is.

A few weeks ago, I was told by my gyno office that I somehow missed a last follow up from when I miscarried. It has been MONTHS! Like about the last time I posted on here probably. I thought it was odd, because I have EVERYTHING on my phone calendar and I know I would not miss something this important for anything. But since I had to do my yearly exam anyway, they did it all at the same appointment. Thankfully, all is good.

But we still wanted to get to the next step in trying to conceive a healthy baby so my gyno  put me back on the meds to help me push along my menstrual cycle since she thinks our issue is the fact that I do not ovulate either very much or not at all. Then she helped us set up a time and day to meet one of the fertility specialist in their office. That day is tomorrow! We are both very anxious and nervous so let’s hope something positive comes from this new meeting.

I promise I will keep the blog updated with all of the new information we discover.

Update

Today I received a call from my doctor’s office that my husband’s sperm analysis came back…ABSOLUTELY NORMAL! Yay! I won’t lie, I had mixed emotions when hearing this news. I started to tear up a bimale_infertility_ivf_michigan_semen_analysis.jpgt. Not because he was healthy. I am very excited and thankful that he is healthy, however the chances of it being my body’s issue to conceive goes up enormously. Which I already knew could be a gigantic possibility from the start, but to have a slight confirmation is nerve-wracking to say the least.

I just stopped this month’s 10 day dose of Provera which is to bring forth my menstrual cycle. The nurse wants me to take a pregnancy test if I have not yet received it even though it could take up two weeks for me to get my period. It is better to be safe than sorry! I will do that and if it is negative, wait for my period,  and then make an appointment with my doctor’s office to continue the infertility testing for me this time. IVF-is-still-an-option-in-many-locations

Of course, this will be costly since infertility treatments are not covered by insurance (don’t even get me started on this! This is an entire new post!!).
So treatments/testing will take a very long time for us since we will have to build up our savings in between each testing we have done. Infertility testing is extremely expensive especially without insurance (I know…I’m not even going there…).

Well as time moves on, and as testing and results come in, I will always submit an update. It has made this journey tolerable to have a place to vent to and not get a staggering comment back or a hesitant and unwanted piece of advice.

 

My Dream v. My Reality

As long as I could remember all I’ve ever wanted in life was to be  a mother. Cliche? Maybe, but it’s what I wanted and still want very much so. If I was being truly honest with myself, I never really pictured the whole white picket fence with the husband, the dog and all that usually comes with that dream, but I did imagine a baby and the bond I had with it. I know it’s odd. Most little girls have their entire lives planned out. I just knew that I wanted to be the person my mother always was to me: my advocate, my superhero, my biggest supporter. I knew that one day I’d want to be those exact things to a smaller version of myself.

Of course, as I grew up, I realized I could always accomplish that dream if I modified it some and found the man I loved wholeheartedly and trusted with my life. Well, this is my story of how I found my soulmate (at a very young age, mind you), but have yet to receive that part of my dream. Our dream now. I guess that’s harsh to say. Being in our lives for as long as we have, we are lucky enough to still be infatuated with one another and have created a sweet and beautiful little fur-family in our adorable home which is a great start so far. However, we know one thing is still missing from our perfect little family: a human version of ourselves running a muck in this adorable home of ours.

The struggle begins with how I was first told I had PCOS at fifteen. What is PCOS? The real name is Polycystic Ovary Syndrome.  A short brief: it is a hormonal disorder that can cause enlarged ovaries with small cysts on the outer edges. The severity of the syndrome can vary. It can just be a bad case of acne, hair growth in unfortunate areas (or loss) to not being able to conceive at all to everything in between those two extremes. I’m somewhere in the middle (as of right now at least). I’m not a doctor, but I’m sure any case can change in any direction or so my research and being in my very interesting Facebook groups have suggested. Fortunately, a great lifestyle change can help; diet, exercise, and medication all can help aide in conceiving or keeping hormones in check.

I’ve started my journey of medications a few months ago (about 7 months), but we started baby making plans about two years ago by stopping my birth control. From the start, I knew it would take a bit of time to get pregnant since the pills had been in my system for a decade, but I didn’t realize it would take THIS long. We are still not pregnant. It is frustrating, maddening and sometimes heartbreaking. We try to keep our feelings and our journey to ourselves most of the time. Sometimes people don’t really understand this part of babies/pregnancy and can sometimes be insensitive or just sort of treat it like it’s a bad cold that’ll eventually go away. Until someone can lay in our bed and try to complete one of the most basic human tasks there is, but come out empty handed every single time, then I just don’t want to hear it.

Though, this is why I started this blog. I needed a place to rant and rave and spill my feelings out. I can tell my husband ANYTHING, but sometimes it’s nice to do it someplace else. He is going through it with me. He knows the struggle. He struggles too. He may not always show it, but I know he does. This entire journey of ours has made me want to put it out there and get it off my chest and if I happen to make one person who may be going through the same thing feel like their not alone than that’s an added bonus.

Welcome to our crazy world of trying to be a part of the breeders club, my weight loss journey part 24545934573, and just basic suggestions, ideas, and moments of AHHs and AHAs! Be sure to bring the wine, you may need it. 🙂