MIA

Sorry for eclecticallymeaganhappybeing MIA lately. It has been a crazy busy week. I have been trying to become a happier version of myself by job searching. This has caused a lot of distraction from my blog, however not from taking care of myself! This past week, I ate pretty decently without overdoing it too much and I have cut down my diary as much as possible. A few hiccups here and there but I am only human, right?.

I worked out a few times, but always managed to stick to my featured workout except for Saturday since I was away for the entire day. No excuse though, I know, I should have spent the 3 minutes and completed my squats. Other than that, I’d say I had a successful-ish week. I am ready for a better one though!

I promise I will get back to my regular posts, but I’ve been struggling with how to word the focus of my next post… but be sure to stay tuned. My goal for this week’s post is to submit it by Tuesday or Wednesday!

This week I want to focus on doing more yoga (to help with my lack of sanity at work, haha) and more on my arms and back! I have the following as my featured workouts! Help me stay accountable and motivated! Join me in this workout this week! 🙂unnamed (1)unnamed

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Featured Work Out Wk #2

I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend! I am so NOT feeling like working out tonight, but I am pushing myself even if it is for 20 minutes. I had a rough day at work and a serious storm has started up, and all I really want to do is lay on the couch with my fur babies and my hubby! BUT healthy and fit bodies are not made as a couch potato 😛

7453efbee18e4ebc532c61ceaf24b592This week’s goals are as follows:

Monday: 20 minutes of elliptical and an attempt at the featured work out

Tuesday: 30 minutes of walking our pups (hopefully it’s a clear day!), 20 minutes of the elliptical, and the featured work out

Wednesday: 30m of walking, 25m of elliptical, featured work out.

Thursday: 30m of walking, 30m of elliptical, featured work out.

Friday and Saturday, I will be going to Charlotte therefore won’t have much time for cardio, but I plan to work in my featured work out somewhere for both days.

Sunday, I will be home so 20m elliptical, 25m yoga, and featured work out.

This week’s featured work out is all about the butt! The picture was a screenshot on my phone (sorry! haha) so it is thunnamede following:

Day 1: 10 Squats

Day 2: 15 Squats

Day 3: 20 Squats

Day 4: 25 Squats

Day 5: 30 Squats

Day 6: 35 Squats

Day 7: 40 Squats

Spotlight Post: PCOS: The Disorder No One Talks About

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Recently, I had the pleasure of being interviewed by an awesome blogger, writer, and a great friend of mine, Jay Van Houtte! He wrote an amazing post on PCOS and helped bring more awareness to this syndrome. Check it out, and check out the rest of his blog! He has a lot of knowledge on blogging, social media networking, and just is a great person to know! 🙂

via Social Path Media PCOS: The Disorder No One Talks About

Happy Saturday!

This was a great week for keeping myself going!I did have some complications onew-energy-bign Thursday due to my sciatic nerve bothering me tremendously. I opted out on working out. On Friday, I had to babysit after work so I did not get a chance to work out last night either. I am about to work out after this post though! That will bring positive-thinking-evokes-more-energy-quotes-sayings-picturesme to a total of five days! More than I have been doing lately. I think posting a featured work out for the week is working well for me (even if I am the only one doing it! 😛 )

I also have been eating and sleeping way better for the most part. I think I only had one bad night of sleep this week. Usually, my bad sleeping patterns are not limited to just one night. I will take it! bloated.jpg

I have also noticed that my stomach isn’t as bloated as usual. I have tried to cut diary out as much as possible this week. Not fully though. Baby steps. I bought unsweetened vanilla almond milk yesterday to replace our regular milk! I made a smoothie this morning for the first time in a while. I am felightbodyeling pretty content and not looking for a snack so that’s a plus. I just feel like I have a ton of energy. I’ve been moving all morning for the most part!

I have posted the work out down below again! In case, you guys change your mind! Well, let me know how you guys are feeling and doing! Are you working out? What are some of your work out tips or routines? I want to get more ideas. Enjoy this beautiful Saturday! 🙂

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Mid-Week Check In

I wanted to take some time to check in! So far this week, I worked out on Sunday, Monday and Tuesday.

On Sundd1d1ef1df083894c88c74a7915132282ay, I just did my usual 30 minutes on the elliptical.

On Monday, I worked out on the elliptical for 25 minutes and then did the toning exercise that I included in my last post.

On Tuesday, I was feeling way more exhausted than Monday and so all we did was take the dogs out for a walk for about 30 minutes. I feel like Tuesdays make me sleepier than Mondays. Is it just me or what?? 9f6b9e563193008e62a9c3dc592ee993

Today, I am feeling way better right now, but I am motivated enough to do our 30 minute dog walk (if our Annabelle is feeling up to it after to her vet appt this morning), 25 minutes on the elliptical and completing the toning challenge!

I can already tell a difference in my stomach, not due to the challenge just yet since I just started it, but from just paying attention to my body’s needs, working out, and eating better food options! I feel less bloated and my pants have been a bit looser. I am looking forward to being able to wear my jeans again (I have been a strict legging and jegging wearer for a while now…)!

How are you guys holding up? I am interested in hearing from you all!

Happy toning! 🙂 toned-body

Toning Exercise #1

I thought it would be a cool idea to post a weekly toning exercise that I plan to do that week! If you would like to join with me, please feel free. We can keep each other accountable by leaving a simple comment below or on my social media! Let’s do it!

My fitness goal for the week:

Elliptical for 25 minutes (4x this week)

Walk our pups for 20-30 minutes (3x this week)

Some form of toning exercise (arm, butt, core, legs, back, etc.) for 20-25 minutes (5x this week)

I would love to work out all 7 days, but my realistic goal will be set for at least 5 days!

This week’s main toning exercise is focused on the core and arms! 

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Let’s Get Physical

1b2b7ce8661c0e9fb1d4c73a018d2e8dWell, it is time to get real with myself…again and to remain in the realness FOREVER. I don’t know about you, but sometimes I either care a whole lot ALL OF THE TIME or I just get through the day with the little bit of motivation I’ve got and whatever happens, happens. Well, for the sake of the longevity of my life, I truly need to find my motivation and drive to always be in a healthy mindset. If I don’t, who knows what kind of health risks I am looking at. So I am here hoping YOU will help me get there and then hold onto it forever. In fact, if you wanted, we could keep each other accountable. Living this healthy lifestyle is better in big groups, don’t ya think?

Let me give you some further background on my wonderful weight loss roller coaster (there are many…). Before this, I had lost about 40 lbs before my husband and I married in 2013. It took me two years; two very long years, to get down to that weight, to get some form of a definition in my stomach and most importantly, to have normal fit-destination-700_0cholesterol levels. I was proud of who I was and what I was doing. I always felt happy, truly healthy, and I rarely questioned the girl in the mirror. It was a nice change of pace especially since I spent years upon years despising who I was both physically and internally.

To get to that point of happiness, I used to go to the gym every day after work and even on the weekends at times. I would aim for two hours every time I was at the gym or a combination of working out at the gym and home. I ate well pretty much every day. Finding new and interesting ways of eating a smoothie or healthy meals/snacks. I kept track of my food and water intake and I was Health-blue-e1429679140877-1013x567in bed at a reasonable time in order to get eight hours of sleep. I was the textbook of healthy and I actually enjoyed it. Now, I’m not going to lie and say I never skipped a day at the gym or ate pizza, because I just don’t lie. It was a rarity, but I did allow a break in my week. I learned you can’t deprive your body of the “bad” food because it may cause you to have a rapid downward spiral and revert back to your old ways in a heartbeat anyway. It is all about portion size and self control; both of which are key, in my opinion.

I lost that perspective after about a year and a half of marriage when our family started to experience severe health issues (or worsened health issues), which affected us more than we’d realized it would. I started to care less about myself and more about the people around me and what they were going through. Meaning my healthy lifestyle pretty much went to the back burner which is okay because that was more important at the time. I just should have tried to balance out work-life-balancemy life a lot better instead of just dropping it altogether because my health is just as important as everyone else’s. I think sometimes people forget about the importance of their mental and physical health during busy times in their lives which is normal but it is important that we are able to have a good balance of helping others and ourselves.

That eventually turned into what I am today, which isn’t so bad, but I’m not where I used to be. I want to love working out and eating weird healthy recipes again. These are now my minor goals to reach my bigger goals. I have different motives this time ahead, of course. Before, it was for our wedding and to lower my cholesterol. This time, it is to just be healthy and to feel healthy (and to hopefully have healthy children someday). I want to look into the mirror and admire the woman I see and not cringe at the person looking back at me. I want to feel like I am actually in control of my life and the outcome of my life. In order to do that, I need to find my balance, my motivation, and my want again.

I wasn’t able to do a starting weight since the battery in my ThinkstockPhotos-518201195scale broke (currently ordering a new one…), however a few months back, I was closer to my weight BEFORE I lost 40 lbs. Yikes. This week, I worked out four times. We’ve walked our pups for about 30 minutes for three days this week and then I would jump right onto the elliptical right after. My goal for this week is to work out today and the ENTIRE week. With a mixture of taking our dogs for a walk, working out on the elliptical, hand weights, and entire body work outs, I think I will be able to work up that lack of motivation. It will just take time; a little each day. Some times I have to remind myself that it won’t happen over night. Patience is a virtue that I am trying to obtain.

I’ve been eating pretty well lately as well. I’ve gotten hooked on trail mix which isn’t amazingly hehealthy-living-webalthy but it’s not, not healthy… I’ve chosen a healthy option at almost every single meal this week and added more veggies to my meals. I did food prep last Sunday and plan to do so this Sunday. It helped me pick the right foods for all my meals and my snacks. I had enough time in the mornings because I made my lunch ahead of time and it never gave me a moment of not knowing what to eat and resorting to an unhealthy option. It was nice to do that again and I actually am looking forward to doing it again tonight for the week! There is one thing I do need to work on which is less dairy intake. In some of my research, I’ve found that there may be a link to PCOS and being lactose intolerant. I believe it. Dairy tends to make me bloated and…unfavorable to the people around me… I’ll be cutting dairy out a lot more than I have been as another goal of mine!

Though, I’m aware of all of my changes and trying to make these changes, I feel like I am still lacking some major mojo. I feel exhausted more than usual which is saying a lot. I suppose it is a combination of normalimages fatigue and now working out so much more. I know my body will adjust but some days, I just wanted to sleep like the dead.

Regardless of fatigue or feeling like I may not be able to get through the day, I will give it my all to keep going. If I want the happy ending that I continuously am dreaming of and talking about, I will have to be actively doing something to be successful in that. If you feel you want your own success to play out as well, let me know. I would love to have accountability and encouragement, and together it may be easier to achieve!  🙂

Roller Coaster

Have you ever fought with your emotions? Had such conflicting emotions all at once? I like Roller Coasterto call this an emotional roller coaster. I’m sure you have experienced this. If you haven’t, what is your secret and are you a robot??? This post may come off wrong, but please know, my intentions are not meant to be that way.

As someone who is in her late twenties, trying to build a family with her pretty awesome husband of many, many years (of whom have been in each other’s lives since we were about 14-ish. Yeah, I realize that is quite a LONG time…) is struggling to become parents, it can wear you down. It can wear down your marriage as well, if you let it. It creates all of these crazy emotions all at once especially when you continuously are around your closest friends, family members and even high school acquaintances who may be getting married and are having babies. It is easy to get lost in a sea of anxiety, frustration, sadness, anger…jealousy.

I absolutely LOVE my family and friends. I absolutely love children. I love that my friends and family members are starting to have children and are experiencing this amazing moment(s) in their lives. So please do not get me wrong when I say that when I see your posts and picture of your announcements, I am automatically put on this emotional roller coaster. At one moment I happiness-02feel such excitement and happiness for you, and then within minutes, that roller coaster begins and I start to feel jealousy and sadness underneath. I know, it’s kind of messed up. I do try to quickly get out of that part of the roller coaster of emotions because I know if I stew in that for too long, I will become a bitter and negative human being. I quickly snap out of it, go back to happiness and excitement and push those negative feelings further down because my goal in life is not to be an angry and jealous person. I realized that just because things are moving as slow as molasses for us, doesn’t mean other people don’t deserve to have this kind of happiness and beautiful experience in their lives, and we should always support and be happy for those we care for no matter what we are personally experiencing.

I will always LOVE being the cool aunt or the cool friend or cousin your kid can count onBwQiNIzIUAASKEw or ask for advice or to just completely spoil them rotten. I do having that role in life, but it won’t stop me from experiencing like 6 different emotions at once when those announcements pop up on Facebook while I am still sitting here trying not to lose hope in creating my own family. At some point, I want to be more than the cool aunt.

When you are told it may be harder for you to do what feels like such a basic human thing to do while the people around you are able to just complete that without any issues, or more than once, or even when they are not even trying, questions start to take over in your brain like why, how, what the… You get the idea.

The wim-acting-like-im-ok-please-dont-interupt-my-performance-funny-quote-600x588orst is when people who really should not be a mother or father are granted that gift and you have to sit back and watch it all unfold in front of your eyes while battling those questions. It’s probably way worse than when you see the people who are going to be great parents because you wonder what God is thinking or what he/she’s plan is. How can these atrociou
s individuals become parents all the while people who have hearts full of love, are kind and decent (not to toot our own horns…) are struggling to be just that? While we may not have millions of dollars, we know we’d provide a safe, happy, and an incredibly loving home without judgement of that child all while providing for them in all sorts of ways. How is that fair? How is that godly?

These questions continuously play over and over in my head. That is w35382-God-Has-A-Planhy I try to cling onto the “everything happens for a reason” motto because I do truly believe that and really, I have to believe in that for the sake of my sanity. There has to be a bigger plan and reason for situations like that to occur even if we may not know what that plan is right this second. When you least expect it, I think that God will eventually show us.

Even though this is a battle I fight about internally, I will never let myself become a bitter and completely negative person especially about something like creating a life to bring into this weird world we live in. If you think about, it is pretty cool. How science has made our bodies the way they are in order to be a temporary home for an entire hu03a61f3c89f2194f8010aed2a4ab3c17man being while being able to feed them, take care of them and then eventually to give birth to them so they can grow up to experience the same thing (if that is what they chose to do in their lives). How can I be a negative person towards anyone who has that ability? It’s probably the closest thing in the world to being a superhero. 😛

You will never see me on my emotional roller coaster when you are in your happiest moment because I will never show it to you (you may know I am experiencing it now that I created this post…but I’ll just pretend you did not in fact read this). I will always be happy for you regardless. Anyone in my shoes will understand this emotional overload nightmare. I hope that the people who are experiencing this kind of roller coaster know that though we are entitled to feel those combative feelings, however you don’t have to let this become who you are. I would think that you wouldn’t want to live your life overshadowed by this kind of dark cloud. Plus if you think about it, if we try to keep ourselves in the more positive and bright light, it will keep us from being completely stressed out, crazy people and that may be the difference you need to finally becoming a parent!oze2631-300x193

Thank You!

When I first started this blog, I mainly did it for myself. I thought of this blog as a place I could go to sit down and just throw my inner most personal feelings, fears, thoughts, just anythingclipart-hearts-two-hearts-clipart and everything at. I figured if I was able to get it off my chest and do some research, it would give me some peace which would lead me to a more stress-free life to conceive a child. I started to think that maybe it may bring me closer to people who are feeling the same conflicts as I am which could bring me even more peace, but I figured if it helped someone in the process (besides myself) then that alone would be worth putting myself under the spotlight.

I just never thought it would touch or matter to as many people as it did when I finally decided to share my blog with my closest friends, family and even acquaintances on Facebook. I was just blown away by the support and the love that people showed me, us. I am still getting private messages about how people are learning so much from reading my blog and how much they didn’t know prior to this. I have also received the messages of the women who have experienced similar situations as I have or who are going through the crazy train that is PCOS. They have expressed their own devastating experiences. Even if I am terrible at giving advice or not able to properly form appropriate responses to their trust in telling me, I want it known that it hit me in my heart and I truly am grateful for your confidence in telling me about their heartaches. I am here, always, if you ever need to vent, I will lend my ear.

I am deeply grateful that people (and not just woman) have read and will continue to read my blog. It means a lot to me that I was able to open the door for conversation!  You guys made my fear of sharing this blog to the world just disappear and I do not regret opening this Pandora’s Box at all.

So, Thank You! 🙂thank-you-1400x800-c-default

Update

Today I received a call from my doctor’s office that my husband’s sperm analysis came back…ABSOLUTELY NORMAL! Yay! I won’t lie, I had mixed emotions when hearing this news. I started to tear up a bimale_infertility_ivf_michigan_semen_analysis.jpgt. Not because he was healthy. I am very excited and thankful that he is healthy, however the chances of it being my body’s issue to conceive goes up enormously. Which I already knew could be a gigantic possibility from the start, but to have a slight confirmation is nerve-wracking to say the least.

I just stopped this month’s 10 day dose of Provera which is to bring forth my menstrual cycle. The nurse wants me to take a pregnancy test if I have not yet received it even though it could take up two weeks for me to get my period. It is better to be safe than sorry! I will do that and if it is negative, wait for my period,  and then make an appointment with my doctor’s office to continue the infertility testing for me this time. IVF-is-still-an-option-in-many-locations

Of course, this will be costly since infertility treatments are not covered by insurance (don’t even get me started on this! This is an entire new post!!).
So treatments/testing will take a very long time for us since we will have to build up our savings in between each testing we have done. Infertility testing is extremely expensive especially without insurance (I know…I’m not even going there…).

Well as time moves on, and as testing and results come in, I will always submit an update. It has made this journey tolerable to have a place to vent to and not get a staggering comment back or a hesitant and unwanted piece of advice.